sometimes i wonder if i am too direct towards people.
perhaps i am just insensitive towards how people feel.
bad or good. good or bad, human's perception on it.
what's yours?
what's mine ?
but, being direct doesnt mean two thumbs down all the time, being direct to them, just gives them a sense of direction, doesn't it??
it's just me, to give them two cents worth of my thoughts and listening to it or not.
ignorant towards it, i am.
at the end of the day, never ever regret. i seriously hate people who are self-contradicting. i think they are pretty brainless, sorry, it's a hard fact, i have to say.
just when you think that life is "oh so perfect". stop by a moment. and think,
not so, after-all.
life's a whore!
common test hereby starts on saturday! wishing all of you guys, best of luck and nail them down =) goodluck people !
poison ivy
11:56 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
this post is meant for everyone, including myself.
very often, we always look at what's missing .
and forgot to give thanks about everything you have.
we may have cash to spend on what we want,
splurging on what we deem fit, on labels,wallets,clothes, bags, shoes, gadgets.
and at times, we don't even think whether we need it anot and buy it down, just like that.
i came across a newspaper article today , it was telling me how poor these 2 old folks were, that they have a packet of bee-hoon and last them for a day. guys, we consume a packet for a meal, but they, consume it for a day.
suddenly, i just felt so fortunate, seriously fortunate, and i think that my habits need review. i have absolutely no idea what the hell i was thinking when i was shopping,
for instance, i bought 4 adidas jacket in one shot and, up till now, i only used one of them which is the yellow one... talking about wadrobe. if you guys know me well enough, you should know that i just changed one, and to a BIGGER one. and now, it's exploding already. not to mention that, that wadrobe is filled with TOPS only. my bottoms are all in another wadrobe in another room.
gosh, and when i read that newspaper article, i seriously felt damn sad for them.
alright guys, ciao! =)
this quote is lifted from jacinth's msn which i found to be very meaningful
your talent is god's gift to you, but how you use it, is your gift to him. =)
meaningful, it really is.
poison ivy
11:34 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
WEEEEEE GUYS !!!
I GOT INTO NGEE ANN AMBASSADORS =) HAHAHAHA. YIPEEE! .... and it finally all came true!
woooooooooooooooooooooots. hurhurhur.
=p. can't wait for the bonding and training camp that will be held on the 14-16th of june. although 16th june is my birthday, but it doesnt really matter, cause my sis and my mom will be in rome.... so.... we can't call for a celebration until they're back =(
hurhurhur. elated elated! =)
poison ivy
4:01 PM
tmr's the day .... 28th. awww
=/
common test is in a week's time. i mean less than a week. . aww so i guess i will be seeing you guys online less often.
=0 so yeap till the end of... common test ! =)
my last post till common test will be tmr.. so stay tuned =p
poison ivy
12:02 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
i just fucking realised that i lost my textbook. and im super pissed. not because i have to pay for a new tb. getting a new one means nothing to me. but this is the fucking first time i lost a textbook, i am freaking pissed.
well, i just hope its a case of someone bringing it back home unknowingly. if not, wouldnt this school be a scary school. and my cousin warned me about being backstabbed. well, i think this already started. oh gosh!
-pissed- im off now.
poison ivy
11:29 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
from 80 to 57. what are the figures about? hmmm. puzzled?
yes. k.g its my weight! from 80kg to 57kg. a shed of 23kg.
from fleshy meaty me to what i am now. well, yes. you may be pondering why am i saying this. i was fat before. =( really really fat and ugly. i perspire whenever i walk.
when i think back, i feel so disgusted at myself. i just can't stop eating. i stuff myself with food. even though its really good food. but, i think about the AMOUNT of good that i ate last time as compared to now.
i was 80kg before, and now 57kg. and my family members/friends are telling me that i've became too skinny. but guys, do you all know what? i'm really really happy with what i am now..... to me, it's more of like a accomplishment.
i actually managed to shed 23kg ( 50.6 pounds) and my diet has changed drastically.
previously all my meals consist of MEAT,RICE,NOODLES,BEE-HOON AND MORE MEAT.
and now, its pretty much fresh salad, yogurts, nuts, milk,oranges,green apples, strawberry and REALLY alot of vegetables and salads
i feel so much lighter and healthier now. my diet has changed so much that now, i really hate meat. i take in meat like probably once in 1 week or smth? simply, if i have a choice, i wouldn't eat meat. yes. and now i really love fresh salads that consists of lettuce, carrots, cucumber, tomatoes, corn, celery and many more which is made fresh daily. =) but of course, i dont totally stay away from meat. ill take them once every 1 week or so.. even if i do take them, its like a slice or something. HURHURHUR.
what i'm trying to say is this. if you have the determination, you really can do wonders, or perhaps anything. previously i thought im going to be fat all my life. but now, look! from 80 to 57kg.
now that " eat more , you must eat more " these few lines are just being flooded into my ears by my dad,mom and friends. guys, i know you allare like worried but don't worry k? i'll take good care of myself. and nope, one of my life goals is to be happy about myself, and yes im happy about what i am now. im not going to eat more just because you tell me to, i live to be happy. and now that i'm happy, nothing's going to change it. =)
lots of loves~edmund
don't believe? see it for yourself!
OMG!!! so fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the fatty me!! omg.
hmm maybe... feb 07?
may 2007 : currently at 57kg =)
poison ivy
10:41 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
kudos to zhengxing and me. finally. our cip photo assignment is done! we were like so productive. HURHURHUR. we finished everything within 2 hours and we both can't wait to go home! haha
I'm beginning to see something more in them and that, I'm glad to say.
life's pretty much normal . attending lecture, tutorials . just normal well, i hope 28th may is gonna be a good and exciting day for me =)
sigh. but i was totally turning off during infa tutorial today. wth was i doing? dreaming away. haha. just feeling tired... but i managed to rush the classwork by the end of the class.
i just realised that the pan fish (either Thai or tartar ) rocks! omg. you guys should try it out. it's super ingenious of them to grill the fish that way. simply LOVE it. at least for once! there's something nice in ngee ann poly! whereas compared to others, they're just edible. hurhurhur try it out =)
yeahh. think im gonna stop here. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR- let lord be your pillar of strength.
one interesting quote i saw on somebody's shirt today. HURHUR [ when the going gets tough, the tough gets going ] LOL makes sense huh? =) ciao~
poison ivy
10:12 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
hey everyone =)
mood : elated!
well... first of all . i am happy because i am among the 120 applicants who got shortlisted out of 600+ people who signed up for NP ambassadors! of course, selections aren't over yet. these 120 applicants will have to go for another round of officer's interview where you will be interviewed by a ngee ann staff! hurhurhur
and for me, it was today! well, everything was goooood. hahaha..=) well. my officer-in-charge of interviewing me was adrian. He's really really a very nice guy. hahahaha.
apart from that, the FINAL 30/40/50 ( approximated ) people out of the 120 will be selected to be part of the ambassadors family. of course, there wont be anymore rounds of selection! hurhurhur!
well, good luck. serene and elda and sky! hahaha. they're my fellow mates who are also shortlisted for the officer's interview! =) serene had hers BEFORE mine. hahhaa. yeahh. so good luck to elda and sky!
on a personal note. hmmm. im pretty much used to poly life now. and i just LOVE it. yeah. L-O-V-E . hahaha. classes,lectures. hmmmm. yeah love it~~
OH ya. HANNAH! thanks SO MUCH for providing all of us the OHP marker and transperencies. you are so nice! YAYAYYAYAYAYAY. hahaha. okay. she's nice. that's a fact =)
hahahaha... yay!!! okay. and yes, for the past month, i felt that my faith was like fading a little in some sense! i guess it's because poly just started and im still not very used to it yet. but NOW, i have that strong faith within me. and i just love it. yay.
never forsake him, as he had never, once forsaken you =) love others like how he loves you. =)
woooohoooO~ lol. im a little high today. yeah!
a very random sentence : do you know a strawberry contains more vitamins than an orange? LOL! but hey. that's a fact =)
alright people. i gotta run. and i really hate doing things on the eleventh hour. but rest assured, quality assured. LOL.
poison ivy
10:45 PM
Thursday, May 3, 2007
i am really afraid that i will lose myself in this scary place. my emotions are like super mixed. i don't want to lose myself.
i am not and not willing to !
everything shall be the same!
just love me for me, or hate me for me. =]
OMG. ambassadors games day is on tmr! and heard that there's gonna be debate and shits. blablabla. havent been debating since like when. 2005? LOL. but i believe, its still within my inner self. hurhurhur.
i just love the rain these days, my mood fits perfectly into it. its like. when it rains, the heavy feeling within me seems to be taken away, and i feel really light and free...
just take me away. sometimes i really wonder, why are all of us working so hard, why is it so! we have worked so hard just to find out that there's no tomorrow? maybe that's life. always so unexpected. always full of surprises or even shocks.
however, till that day comes, i will be who i am. knowing my priority! and yes, you guys will still see the typical bitchy clutchy edmund . LOL .
well, momo's question today actually shocked me. she asked me if there were gays in school. and i was like " hey wth? ". LIKE HELLO. why are you asking me this. then she said , she would really be freaked out if those guys were like pestering me. and she's concerned. seriously speaking, if girls came all out just to play me, i dont mind being one. but that's not the case! and hello im normal alright!! but im still pondering why she asked.... hmmm...
blablablabla. im loving my life now.=0 . to actually know that you care, to actually know that i'm blessed, to actually know that you're always there beside me, to actually know that you'll continue to bless me, to actually know that you've forgiven all my sins,
it made my day. almighty lord.
praise him, praise, believe and be blessed =)
poison ivy
11:24 PM
ABOUT HIM
his name is EDMUND CHRISTOPHER ng
Someone who cares alot about his friends, someone who is always happy infront of all his friends;
he'll never allow any of his friends to experience what he's been going through; for the fear of them being hurt.
with that, he puts on a facade , he always appear jovial and cheerful infront of his friends.
they'll never know that, another side lives within him. He'll always want to see his loved ones being happy, it makes his day.
Someone who loves talking; he could order a cup of fine earl grey or smoothie and chat with his friends till the end of time.He
loves fresh salad, he don't mind eating them for the rest of his life.
Edmund is sometimes said to be dominant; he wants result to the extent that he can be really scary. Edmund treasures what he has,
his family and his friends.
Sometimes, he wished he could show his emotions to people whom he knows care about him, he has never done that; he's always looked
upon as strong among his friends. He's always looked upon as the mature and serious one; he can get childish at times, also, he'll
also feel lethargic. He's someone who gets paranoid easily.
Edmund loves shopping; he could be in a shopping spree for mainly 2 reasons; a)shopping with good companions, b) bad mood
having said so much, he's not. abnormal; he's just like any ordinary boy.
