I cannot resist the happiness that money can buy. Seriously... I just love shopping; shopping with a few good friends, and just observe for a second; how any urbanized singaporean would be in the central of singapore; yes town.

Hurhur; oh well... Whenever i go shopping. I do feel that it's a way to de-stress myself on not marginalising the fact that i very much love to shop. OH WELL. why stress.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm asking too much of myself; to the extent that it had already taken its toll on my health, Lots of events are coming up in school and as a matter of fact, I'm a student ambassador and yes, events such as Red Camp, Open house, Duties are all rolling in.... For instance, we had to submit our timeslot pertaining to red camp by the 4th of oct, I've submitted mine ... and i'm staying all the way to as late as 9pm... like can you imagine, I'm still not used to the timetable now and I have to plan stuffs after my new timetable. That doesn't really sound right; I'm not a human charmelon, I need time to adapt to the new changes, new faces. Probably everything in life.

Next week will be a really really busy week. Meetings with ambassadors, Ngee Ann-Hillgrove Alumni chapter to settle, Amanda's Birthday, Rehearsal for Cheque Presentation, Doing my braces then the actual cheque presentation... okay the actual one will only occur the week after next but it doesn't harm to know more about me right?

whatever it is, I'm ready for all the changes that come. I'm ready to face them all, I'm ready to adapt to all these changes, and first things first. I am going to delete Dota off my laptop. hurhur; found out that i've been too addicted to Dota during the holidays... It's not that i play it 24/7 but its just that I would play it at night till wee hours and that is a habit which i would like to kick... and clear my mind from all distractions for the upcoming new semester! and now with dota off my computer; i wouldn't hog onto the computer at night and I can finally read all my treats in peace. HHAHA if you don't know what are my treats; they are books with stories of course. and that's what you call a storybook.

Anyway, in the midst of my conversation with cindy, We talked about this show, Men of Honour. Great show, Great storyline; Totally love it.

and oh yes; I finally touched the TV today; It telecast Million Dollar Baby and oh well; I watched it and my dad went " oh; clint eastwood is really old now " and i'm like OKAY!.

and my sister sent me a postcard from paris; the city of romance! she's travelling all over europe now. HAHA; She will be going to belgium soon ! oooh goodness; i do hope that she send us some great great belgium chocolates ! They are simply some of my all time favourites.

Wala; that's quite a post; I have to run off to bed; Chuch tmr; Can't wait.



It's because of the Mighty One that I have strength to continue doing what I'm doing, Thank you; gracious lord.

poison ivy
1:31 AM

It's set!

you will see a bracey edmund on 7th oct. HAHAHAHA gosh;

yay cheryl choy; and all you braces-wearer out there; edmund's in the braces club!

... dang! dang ! dang ! my parents just asked me if i wanted to go on a holiday with them... yes.. during my holidays NOW!...

i'm very depressed. looks like i'll be home alone again due to school commitments... I've gave up a family holiday during june... looks like this will be my second time.

looking at what's lining up.

26th Sept - Ambassadors Booth Duty
5th 0ct - Rehearsal
8th Oct - Np cheque presentation
10-11 oct - SL camp for redcamp 4

... and 15th oct is the start of school; seriously... it's so depressing ...i feel like swearing to whoever; i just feel like doing it. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

and hahaha; oh well; i don't mind being home alone but it's just that; ever since poly; i've given most of my family time up... and i don't really like that... like perhaps what cindy said that I'm a family-oriented person... I don't deny that I ain't... BUT hello; i ain't a family man. It's just that i consider my family members' before everything I suppose. Sometimes; i worry if i will be hurting them too much if i just come clear with them... i guess i will... i guess i would... and i guess i never will... perhaps they are the reason why i am holding back. BAHHH; but oh; you can call me a mummy's boy. I don't mind; hahha; I am forever's my mummy's boy. yay.

sometimes i wonder if being the norm will bring me out of the dilemma & misery that i am in. I just dont feel good now; that is....

and you can call me a weirdo but i am excited that school is starting! haha cheers! =) can't wait to see some people....
that's all for now =)

poison ivy
12:43 AM

Fatigue & Never-ending Fatigue.



Try doing a post in a tipsy state that I'm in now; and you'll understand what I'm talking about; but nonetheless; the Fatigue that i'm talking about; isn't all about being tired physically; rather being tired mentally.



Have you ever been sick and tired mentally; over an obligation that you need to commit on a regular basis? YES??? i suppose; if not you wouldn't even continue reading this post;

Sigh; I wonder if this is pre-stress over the new semester. whatever you call it but i want to stress that, When you agree upon taking up that obligation, then it is then your responsibility to fulfil that obligation... giving excuses to run away from this just show how shallow a person you are. seriously; trust me... You wouldn't want to end up in Edmund's all time shallow-person log book. If you agreed upon taking up that obligation then you jolly-bolly well do your part; and stop skiving... If you can't even perform such a simple task then seriously; just bang the wall and die.

I wouldn't say that I'm excluded from this. At times; I myself feel tired from all these DAMN obligations! yes damn it; the most i would do is to procastinate; just for a short while to rest my soul. thanks; i needed that. BUT at the end of the day; i would still get things done.

I'm not saying that nobody deserves a break; Everyone deserves one; that's why I'm spending my holidays at home; resting; and stop giving me that "bummer" label. I know i ain't working; yes yes yes; so what; my parents aren't even giving a shit about it and you dare speak ill of me behind my back; SLAM those words right infront of my face LURH; bitch. like okay; no offence to anyone; to me; I worked part-time after my O's for the sake of gaining experience; HELLO and nothing else; ENOUGH said;

Okay; on a lighter note; CINDY passed me the good news that she managed to clear her POA prelims with a total score of 53. THOUGH; to some people it may be BAD but hey; she started with a F9 during mid year; AND hahahaha; YOU SEE. that proves that my tuition is DAMN GOOD lurh; oh please; like the one-&-only can? haha; YAY; but girl, I'm proud of you and YAY; I know I'm your honeybun and we're mstoh's Sweetiepies. HAHA ;) We're gonna make our own Honeybuns t-shirt; HAHA. This whole idea sparked my mind when i was talking to my childhood friend; he stopped studying and is now working in a company that deals class t-shirt and customised tshirts; pretty cool huh; CINDY AND AMANDA!! I DEMAND THAT WE HANG OUT SOME TIME SOON; afterall we're all each other's honeybuns; aren't we? heeee; tsktsk.
AMANDA.CINDY.EDMUND. we're Oh-so-honeybuns. =)

Woooooo; I'm going to the dentist tomorrow; HAHA; yes! I do love my momo; I just recieved a call from her earlier in the day; in the midst of your conversation ; she said " you mentioned you wanted to make braces didn't you? I'll make an appointment with our family dentist for you tomorrow can? so I'm able to accompany you " and like HELLO; that was like so unexpected cause i only mentioned to her like ONCE last week in the car while i was smiling to myself infront of the car-mirror; and i said " I feel that my teeth is very ugly and I'm in bad need of braces" and TA-DA; haha; FINALLY. FINALLY ; I'll be able to get rid of my irksome teeth;

My momo is just so sweet; and we agreed to go shopping on sunday..
This time round; for mooncakes; OF ALL THOSE that i've tasted; THE MOONCAKES FROM RAFFLES HOTEL WERE SIMPLY SUPERB; Some best mooncakes that i've tasted; UHHHH; I think it's rather cheap for such good mooncakes; it's only like 40+ for 4 mooncakes; go get them;

OKAY i'm done posting;)
just want to say that; I'm thankful that you're with me all the time; through the fire; through whatever that comes & I <3 you =)

AHHHHH; haven't been replying to ppl AS promptly on msn; SO sorry about it; I'm always away; like most of the times. I apologise here; =) .

UHHHHHHm; like ya; night people;

poison ivy
3:15 AM

Wonders of GOD

Sometimes, I too, get pretty much amazed by the wonders of GOD.
HE is like AMAZING; HE'S LIKE A DRUG; ONCE YOU FEED ON IT, the happiness that you're able to get is everlasting and it never dies off.

I am thankful that ever since I was born, they fed me with the drug; and up till today, I still sense happiness during my really low-lows.

Let me cite an example.
Just yesterday, I was suppose to be choosing my timetable for 2007 Semester 2; I woke up at 8am even though registration starts at 9am... I was there browsing through the different timeslots; and I found one; really to my liking. Out of the 5 days, 4 starts at 9am daily. THIS IS GOOD NEWS. which means i could follow my dad; and he could drop me off at school. HOWEVER. when it was 9am... WITHIN perhaps. 30 SECONDS? CLASS TA03 was TAKEN UP! OH gosh! i didn't even managed to see it on the selection slots. THEN, I BEGAN to panick. LIKE DAMN. trying to source for another similar timetable BUT too bad, when i went back to the selection page, only 4 out of the 8 classes were left; namely 02,06,07,08

I was seriously depressed. To end this misery, I chose TA07... and unknowingly, MOST of my current classmates chose that class too. I seriously had no idea beforehand cause they were telling me they're going to go TA02...

I got pissed as I didn't manage to get into TA03. and for TA07, i only managed to follow my dad 2 out of the 5 days in one week and that makes it even more depressing... I rang my mom at 9.30am when she was at work... and i sounded very blunt and harsh; She then knew something wasn't going on right and asked "Who actually enraged you early in the morning; Aren't you suppose to choose your timetable? " and I told her everything; then her reply was "There's no point getting too worked up over it, why not just take this as something that GOD has already planned for you " Her words shook me out of the grumpy feeling that I was in.

I began to think; that now i'm once again in the same class as most of my classmates. Perhaps; God wants me to know them better. God is giving me half a year's time to know these people better! I needn't be in a class filled with strangers; I need not break that ice that is in between me and those bunch of strangers. and the load got lighter and lighter. There is no doubt saying that you'll know new people in a new class. BUT QUANTITY can never be matched up against QUALITY. you know; and the relationship that we share will just turn out to be a bottle of diluted milo... ( i have no idea why i'm using milo as an example but well, at least you get my point) ... with another half a years time, i believe the relationship with my current classmates will just be more concentrated and unlike that cup of diluted milo.

AND I got totally enticed and excited about class today; HAHA i found out that MS KAREN QUAH is taking my class for FFA . and she told me that she'll be taking ONLY 2 classes of FFA out of like 16 accountancy classes. HOW coincidential can this get? tell me about it. so it must have been god. GOD has always planned the road for me to walk on; though it does gets bumpy at times; but yeah.

GOSH; i gotta thank god.
AND hahahaha; TA07; <3>
Breakfast with Mommy tmr; <3>

poison ivy
11:39 PM

I know this post is very retarded; first of all, i got back my results;

4 ADs, 1 B and 1 C+ and i am not a single bit happy about it; well, it is just a basic expectation of me to ace those modules which i've aced and there's really nothing to be proud of or happy about, i think it pretty much sucked. like crap. a C+.... thank goodness i managed to clear my C.I.P with a C+ and i need not repeat this bloody module. OKAY. I am bad at computers. see! i'm not cut out to fix computers.. i don't long to be a computer-man. ASS. like whoever said it on my msn... i probably forgot; that person said - CIP are for the b.i.t people. NOT very true. but then again; the name of their course misleads people to think that cip are so for bit ppl and they are the ones acing it. BUT URHHHHH; disgusting. anyway; my advisor ringed me up and asked me what happened, and asked me why i got a C+ for my CIP, holy! it was a sunday morning and she called me up and asked ... my reply to her was " i kind of expected this and people; msquah said that she'll be taking 2 classes of FFA next semester, and she said maybe i will see you again. HAHAHAHA she makes it sound like i'm so pleasant to teach. *BEAMS* thank you very much. HAHAHAHA =)

next; i want to post about the most recent class gathering. seriously. i felt very shitty during the gathering. it was like the whole class were spiltted into 2 groups. WTH. 2 groups of people; when 1 group wanted to eat western and 1 group wanted to eat oriental. when one group wants to eat burgers while the others want to eat nuggets. DAMN YOU CHICKEN MCNUGGET! . . .

I am just citing an example; not referring to anyone in particular but i just want to make things clear; IF there is EVER another similar gathering where the whole group is just going to walk around singapore's biggest shopping mall, which could be completed in like 40 minutes. DO NOT ask me there; OH WELL; the petshop at vivo is AWESOME. the pets i meant; they had dogs which i wanted to bring home...

CRAP. but guys; never get me a dog for a present ya. i'm a person who's fickleminded. i get bored of things easily. ahahhaa my psp is collecting dust. i dont even play it. CRAP. HAHAHA;

happy birthday joan; hurhur;
yeap; ahhh...

amanda,cindy and i are thinking of making our very own customized tshirts =)

YAY. so excited. haha. i am very excited. very very very! =)

poison ivy
12:42 AM

Cindy's Birthday!

haha yeap. you got it right; we had a surprise celebration for cindy on 9/9/07 ... 12am! amanda and I sneakily bought the cake and got everything ready . HAHAHA, well, we did it because we felt that cindy didn't feel good when she didn't get to blow the candles at her bbq due to the very strong wind, so we made this decision of letting her blow the candles, and she did that. =) after which we stayed at her house till very late just to chat. hahaha; now you wouldn't mind chatting your time away with some of the best people on earth! ...

now that's what i call true friends. always being there for each other no matter what. being able to chat on anything under the sun. uhhh hahaha. yes. i love them =)

i shall let the pictures do the talking =)

the cake

poison ivy
11:53 PM

A week without pops

From the tittle, I will be without my dad for the whole of next week! He's flying off to brunei this time round. oh well, when he comes back from brunei on friday, he'll be setting off to malaysia with my mom for the weekend and i've decided not to tag along; and sometimes i wonder; what happened to the once i thought warmest family on earth, consisting of 4 members; now that one's in holland and the other always have business obligations to fulfill, oh well. leaving me and my mom alone.

... depressing depressing.
to even more depressing thoughts.

We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love...

Am i being caught up in that? I believe i've given up many opportunities. I'm unsure, I ain't sure of myself.

SIGH!

poison ivy
9:54 PM

DREAMS . . .

While I was watching the television; I got bored after watching a documentary on sharks and starting to switch the channels one after another... until i reached this channel that telecast a programme called : super sunday. Okay it's this competition that's happening in taiwan, where students from the universities compete... This gruelling competition has lasted for at least a year! yes, a year! and so... what actually caught my attention was this girl sobbing while saying her last words. the tears she shed was touching in a way that, she actually sacrificed alot for this competition or rather her dreams. Then on, i watched the show till the end and there's another guy who got eliminated as well and for his dreams again, it made me so depressed.

What are dreams actually; Dreams are a thought we have in mind, thoughts of wanting/desiring but we have yet to own or accomplish the desire. When these people breakdown knowing that they've been eliminated, that they've disappointed many who believed in them , their dreams are now shattered and immedietely i asked myself. What's my dream? hoho, An accountant? yes i would say, it's my dreamjob and i'm on my way there! what about my other dreams. These people took the leap and put their dreams to test. A test that could make or break the dream once so perfect.

Dreams are something that motivates us to constantly improve or moving on to accomplish what we set out to accomplish, and the guy actually said something " When I won the rights to represent my school; When i got first in position; all these didn't come easy, It wasn't the first time i took part in such competition and sometimes I couldn't even get pass the qualifying round, and he's grateful that he's able to make it so far " Well, what he said was pretty touching. Sacrifices are inevitable when you want to live the dream or rather, YOUR dream.

After watching the television, it actually inspired me to hold onto my dreams in whatever area. and to live it ; live it the way my life should be!

One very infamous phrase that i believe my juniors should know;

" I always believe; if you reach for the moon and even if you fail, you'll still fall on the stars ( considering that the moon is higher )
and I believe if you reach for the stars and you fail, you'll still fall on the clouds "

keep it going! keep them alive ppl! not just my juniors but everyone. Have you been living your dream? if not; start now!

poison ivy
1:09 AM

NO; I DON'T FEEL THAT WAY!

BOOOOOO; just had a gathering with the church peeps whom my mommy invited including father moses yap. oh well; he's a pretty nice priest; and apparently, he told me that i looked better last time, and all the people in the gathering promptly agreed! OH MY GOSH, OBVIOUSLY NOT RIGHT. WHY WHY WHY do people keep saying that. HUHHUHHUH! WHY WHY WHY; IS THE SKY VERY BLUE? NO WHAT; its very GREY.

arrrg. i just couldn't help it but feel helpless last time when i weigh so much heavier. HAHA

and you know, being skinnier ( i was never slim-HAHA!) just boosts my confidence by like a ton! well, and when i go shopping it's easier too! HAHAHAHA. like don't have to keep asking; just take and go! and whats more, it fits perfectly fine =)

I've shed 25 kilos, and okay stop nagging you people; its driving me crazy. stop asking me to flood myself with food la. what's so nice about eating huh. i rather go ogle at some hotbods and get horny! that's pretty brainless but i think eating is even more brainless right. yawns.

okayy lurh. i ate like alot today! omgosh. can't believe it because i literally got stuffed with food and i am so afraid that i may put on 1kg. like eeeks. grosss, i can't afford to have that 1kg of extra weight in me. i'll go crazy. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRR. hahahaha!

but fret not, i will not turn anorexic. these people are quite disgusting eh.like they starve themselves to the extent that they die. like wow! what a nice way to end your life because if i aint wrong, i read the newspaper and 2 girls died from being anorexic in the middleeast.

OH WELL; =) I AM ROOTING FOR SERENA WILLIAMS! HEEEEEEE. for the us open finals. GOD. she serves like a bulldog. so fast and fierce and heavy! but well, venus is not that bad either; venus' an all rounder . hits hard, run fast. oh well i still prefer serena to venus. but whatever! they'll be facing off each other in the semi finals! HOW EXCITING IS THAT. HAHA. COME ON COME ON give me a good match.

i'm going to check the channel supersport timing; so yeah! gdnight people; loveya'll and take care.

CINDY'S BIRTHDAY BBQ IS TOMORROW! HAHAHA :)

poison ivy
1:04 AM

THE HILLGROVE-NGEE ANN ALUMNI CHAPTER

okay listen up people!
I am trying to pool people to join the hillgrove-ngee ann alumni chapter! Below is the extract from the Corporate Communications Office's Liason Manager.

Here's the list of Hillgrove Sec Sch students who join NP in 2007 (46 Year 1 students), 2006 (52 Year 2 students) & 2005 (31 Year 3 students).

The aims of an Alumni Chapter are basically:- meet up with fellow Sec Sch alumni in NP - welcome other new NP students from their alma mater - reach out to the current students of their alma mater e.g. through sharing sessions, hosting them in NP eventsThe Alumni Chapter is required to organise two events per semester (this can include a get-together tea session). We hope the Alumni Chapter members can keep in in touch with their former sec schs on activities where they can play a part in it. Should they require any help from Corp Comm, let me know. Oh yes, members who have participated in the planning & execution of each event will be given CCA points. You can start the ball rolling & get a few interested students to form a small committee. Try to keep me informed of any activities before proceeding.

okay yes. Current Ngee Ann students from hillgrove, or current hillgrove students are welcome to join
so if you are interested in joining, PLEASE,

ADD ME ON MSN @ Yellowwave@hotmail.com
do not email me at that address;

if you do not have msn, then email me at edmundng90@gmail.com

thank you people! =)

poison ivy
12:57 AM