forbid me not, let me run wild.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

hey people =)

after so many days of excruciating agony, im proud to say that edmund is back! and he's really back.

I was feeling so constricted deep within that i could hardly breathe.

since the start of this week, i felt so tired and worn out. shocks and disappointments came by one after another. my whole mind was so freaking consumed with it that i nearly passed out yesterday,

anyway, its bad news for people who wants to see edmund breakdown because i'm back! my soul feels refreshed, and im back for any challenges. so keep it coming and dont stop trying, but don't try too hard cause you'll end up looking stupid and of course, sounding stupid.

i'll just let nature take its course, but I'll have all preperations done and hence i won't have any regrets. It is so tiring to hate someone, but then, neither will i love you, you're just so yesterday and you're out of my life.

i may have failed this time, but this failure has actually spurred me on, all thanks to you =) thank you!

i believe that god has everything planned out for me, everything has a reason behind it, perhaps we can't see what god has planned for us, but i believe, blessed are those who believe without seeing.

anyway, i have some last ranting to do, with all your bull, i was actually manipulated by you, nice move but this will not happen again. * roll eyes* just f_ck off.

i will not run away, i will face everything with lord, almighty.

dazzled by my comeback? now, you haven't really understand me yet. so yeah, you can either keep trying or just stop trying and go get laid.

p.s peeeeps - sorry for the offensive usage of words .

anyway, my buddy is back from australia, yipeeee! ahahahhaa, we'll be passing each other stuffs on monday, she'll be passing me my belated bday present from australia, *ponders * and ill be passing her chocolates that my family members got from rome.

i'm just feeling so refreshed now that i can't even sleep.

edmund's back ! =D

poison ivy
2:43 AM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

hello people,

pardon me for not blogging over the past few weeks,

common test results were out. pretty glad, i would say.

however, there's no room for complacency, its rather a form of encouragement.

yes.

i do not admit that i'm a smart ass because i don't feel it that way.

like seriously, im not.

felt pretty down due to the cip project and stuffs to such an extent that i pretty much felt like breaking down during class. but, this is not a time for me or any of my grp members to give up!
we'll get through it. as a team.

=D

love ya guys.

hurhur

well, loves,

edmund

poison ivy
6:01 PM

Sunday, June 17, 2007

hey people.

i'm back from the ambassadors camp.

many of you may feel that i will be feeling sad cause my birthday chalet was a goner due to the camp.

BUT i beg to differ! =)

do you guys know that, i really feel that i've gained so much through out the camp. so many new friends, so many skills learnt and i feel that it's one of the best birthday present ever.

a chalet, is afterall just a chalet. the things that you can get out of a chalet is just that much and very expected.

however this camp has enriched my life, i wouldn't want to lie that it's tiring but afterall, its fun. seriously fun.

i've learnt so much throughout this camp. the skills, myself... it is really the best 17th birthday present that i've ever recieve. but not forgetting all my friends who gave me presents. totally love them. =D thank you guys.

my favourite part of the camp other than all the activities was actually the debrief. all of us were ourselves and we just shared our experience and how we feel. at that point in time, i just feel so proud of my group and i'm LOOKING forward to working with all of you guys.

i just feel so elated and happy.

1 more week of holidays before school starts again.

rest well everyone, freshen up and be prepared for all the upcoming challenges that has been planned =)

Through whatever come what may, as a team .

=)

poison ivy
12:03 AM

Saturday, June 9, 2007

everybody this is cindy. Do not misunderstand, she is my very good friend since secondary 1 and not what you guys( those reading my blog) think what it is. and yes, she's attached to my very good friend, wesley.

alright, i think i've stated enough info and i dont see the need in explaining myself.

I am thankful to the lord for allowing me to meet such a good friend... she's someone whom i feel comfortable with, to such an extent that we could just talk about anything under the sun, we'll never fail to lend each other a pair of listening ear when we need one!

After today's ambassador's briefing which was super fun, i headed to bugis with cindy! oh gosh. finally caught up with her after so many months, even though we havent been going out that frequently like last time, but the bond and friendship we share still exists.

we had our lunch together. shopped around and of course, we did what we're best at and that's BITCHING. hurhurhur. not so much of bitching but we just feel happy just to chat together.

COULD you guys believe it? we sat at mac from 4.30pm till night time. and guess what were we doing? hurhurhur. TALKING!!!!!!

lol... she's so funny when she tells me all her little secrets.

ahahahhaa.

well, thank you my good friend =)

O's approaching. do work hard. and i pray that you will be able to get into the dreamcourse you really want =) .

i did it, and i know you can . =)

good friends never fail to make your day. hurhurhur. and she just did! lol

poison ivy
9:50 PM

Friday, June 8, 2007

today, i just remembered what i wanted to blog about!

i guess busy preparing for school has taken it's toll on me.

my memory is getting really bad. hurhurhur.

well, i am damn upset, when i learn about the ambassador's camp, i knew my birthday chalet was a total GONER.

oh man, it is supposed to happen on the 13th-15th of june, but ambassador's camp falls on 14-16th of june...

i guess it can't be helped... sacrifices has to be made in order to achieve what you want.

edmund's opportunity cost for going to the ambassador's camp is actually, his BIRTHDAY CHALET! ahahhaa, but THANK GOODNESS. BEN-ZOK-ZOK! :D ( i cant help it but still call you by that name =p ) you rock! i'm so glad that you're able to take the chalet over from me. if not it will be such a waste lurh.

well. i'm not trying to tell ppl how great this sacrifice that i'vemade, do not misunderstand. * roll eyes*

i'm just so sorry to the ppl whom i've invited. sorry!!!, i feel obligated to alot of ppl who helped me got over the *emo* period that i was once in. unintentionally, i suppose, i may have hurt some ppl. and here, i apologise. =
i still love you guys =).

my house is practically empty. my family's in rome. sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh. they're coming back only on my birthday!!! gosh.

everyone! looks like 16th the big day for EVERYTHING. like duh.

even though my house is empty,

but i actually love it. hurhurhur. gosh. am i sick or what.

-end-

poison ivy
10:49 PM

Thursday, June 7, 2007

i am feeling so refreshed and good!!!!

i just can't pen down the swimming session with hyuntae today...
it made me feel free.

we didn't really talk much during the session but infact, both of us just did our laps. from perhaps three p.m till evening and we just kept going on. i enjoyed the time spent with him so much, i bet hyuntae feels the same way too!

afterall, we're both worn down by the hustling life that any normal urbanite student is facing.

at times, humans don't really have to talk in order to communicate and through mutual bond and trust, communications were made possible.

i am so glad that i have friends whom i can rely on when the world comes crushing down. =)

thank you, guys. =) [ not referring to only hyuntae =p ]

poison ivy
10:05 PM

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

i am looking forward to a break that i rightfully deserve and it starts tomorrow, after 10am

INFA paper will be from 8.30am till 10am.

greatness.

i really missed swimming, tennis , jogging..

wanting to do well comes with a price,

not wanting to fall out of track in this ratrace comes with a price.

i am seriously lethargic.

and when i'm listening to the song, star. a song from the movie : 200 pounds beauty. i myself dont even know why, i just feel so emotional... pondering whether it is worth it for what i've done to myself.

oh dear, but dont worry. i am just a little emotional... hurhurhur

talking about love...

i feel that i'm a total stranger towards it.

its no laughing matter, it's beginning to drift further and further away. no. i am not desperate.

but...

somehow, this love life of mine has long been sealed,
i just can't feel anything....

i don't know why.
or is it just me..
bang!

-end-

poison ivy
9:34 PM

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

a very random post,

a very good buddy of mine, geraldina, is having her own "shopping-earrings" blog.

her earrings are all super cute and exotic. you should take a look @ http://www.dene-dina.blogspot.com

and guys and gurls, you can pamper yourself right now!
all items are at DFS price.

hurhur. =)

poison ivy
3:17 PM

i always ponder,

is it true that all geminis are two-sided, not excluding me.

the truth that i'm seeking for is somehow, being reflected on myself.

and i somehow feel ugly and distorted for the fact that i'm two-sided.

i'm really worn out in this ratrace.

this ratrace, filled with over-achievers.

i somehow feel that i am losing myself..

perhaps, this is just life.

consoling myself, indeed.

poison ivy
3:04 PM

Sunday, June 3, 2007

when we try to break the "communication barrier" among ourselves, a very typical question will be " what's your class? what's your cca? " ... and a fine conversation starts.

many times, when i said, " i'm in ambassadors. ", people will ask, " oh, so what do you do in ambassadors? " dumbfounded? not! , it's just that i'm pretty sick of repeating myself over and over again. hence, now, i'm posting my point of view of what being an ambassador is all about.

When I was at the recruitment drive, I heard 2 girls conversing unknowingly and i was pretty much puzzled... this girl said to her friend " hey, i thought you said you're going to join ambassadors ? " ... and she replied " Oh ya, i almost forgotten, let's join together for fun "

At that point in time, I felt pretty annoyed deep within even though i wasn't given the liberty to do so.

How could people join ambassadors without knowing what's going to come, what should they expect of it and the more important question, how can they contribute to it. Pretty much shocked by their conversation, I know that, it's a ultimate platform for all those who joined to serve and give back from what we had recieved. During the open house, I was impressed by the bus facilitators, they did a terrific job backthen during the open house and I knew this is what i want to join.

Being a pretty much outspoken student back then in my secondary school, I know that ngee ann ambassadors will serve as a ultimate platform for me to offer my personal best.

I dont think i've seen enough yet, but what i experienced during the open house was enough to convince me that Ambassadors' isn't an easy fret. I know that life being an Ambassador, will change my life drastically due to the work commitments, i think i've said this before, if i am in something, i make sure i offer my personal best. this is not an assurance, but rather, it's just me.

back to the topic, which i want to blog about.

Being an ambassador, as you can tell from the word, it's like being the spokesperson of Ngee Ann polytechnic, you'll handle major events like the open house, redcamp and not to mention, everything starts from scratch. scrutinising every single detail, setbacks that may occur. travelling down to various secondary schools, giving talks, course-career counselling. you are trying to sell ngee ann, in layman terms.

Now that, i'm given the opportunity to do so, i shall, infact, i will definitely offer my very best.

it all begins.
the real poly life is taking flight.

on a very personal and lighter note,

my family will be heading off to rome,italy tmr. shucks. i am so going to miss them, for sure!

poison ivy
5:24 PM