can someone please tell me whether its worth it doing what i am doing.
ARRRRG. I'M SO STRESSED UP WITH EVERYTHING THAT I THINK THAT MY HAIR IS FALLING!!!! OMG.
anyway; my past chapter was over.
edmund's up for grab... =) strange enough, my parents have been advising me to go on a relationship... and they're asking me whether i like anyone from school... my reply to them was a straight no!
i think i've waited long enough... so long that you took me for granted. hyuntae once told me that, people should sometimes play hard to get, that'll make a person value you more. i shall give him credit for that quote. you hurt me deep enough... i still remember.... during the first week of school. problems came WHAM! right at my face one after another. i finally understood how the life of air-stewards are. not being able to sleep 24/7 ... finally.
i think i should move on to a new chapter. you're just too much for me to handle... but ill never forget the day you broke my heart. it was one very special day. and since then, i've been waiting for you eversince. you may not read this blog. yes you very much don't care. but this post is more dedicated to people whom i'm close to. =] ... perhaps, like what hyuntae said, its a form of relief if i let go asap. true enough. with you in my head, i can't think. with you around my life, nothings just seem to go right. i was blinded by love, even when everything was going the wrong way, i still feel that i'm going the right way.. how ironic.
time may heal all wound... i beg to differ. Reminiscences of you, my broken heart, my lonely soul... i sometimes cry myself to sleep however, all these gotta stop. it's too much for me. too much that adverse effects are now seen in me. i'm now so afraid of taking the leap once again... you once lifted me up from the sea, at that point of time, i felt so happy, elated, in a way that i feel that i'm on wings! and when you didn't like it, you took off the wings that you once put on for me, and slam me right down to the very very deep seabed...
I may be drowning in my love life, but the other parts of my life are going on pretty much well..
as a friend, i love hyuntae! :) i really really love ya! thanks for all the BLARDY good advices.
I AM SO GAY! i meant happy! ( stop being so narrow-minded, TYPICAL singaporeans! roll eyes)
i'm more than what it meets the eye =P hurhurhur!
ughhh, to end off, my dad's flying off to brunei for business again....sigh, daddyiloveyou. mommyiloveyou. magiloveyou.
mag: you musn't worry alright? =) you're flying off to holland real soon and i'll miss you. we'll not be seeing each other for so long unless i decide to fly to holland to visit you. i still feel very much appreciated when you came into my room and pour out all your sorrows to me. i felt valued by you, at least. As a brother, i could only do so much by lending you a listening ear, a source of comfort when you're feeling down. well, even if everything goes wrong, i still love you! =) even though you came barging in while i was studying, i don't mind.
arrrrr: geraldina. saw her today. HEYYY budddy... i'm thinking of a thailand-bangkok trip during our august holidays. HURHUR. how about that! or do you want to come holland with me... IM SO UNDECIDED! i'm in such a dilemma. but i could sense that my dad kinda disapprove of me going to holland. hurhur. shieeettt....love ya buddy!
DO support geraldina at www.dene-dina.blogspot.com she sells SUPER DUPER CUTE EARRINGS. hurhur. not earrings, ear stud. IF my ear hole didn't close up, I SWEAR ill buy all of em. they are so damn cute!!!!
oh damn. what a long post! SMACK that. fine. i shall stop posting hurhur! ciao guys. love all of ya'll.
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poison ivy
9:07 PM
ABOUT HIM
his name is EDMUND CHRISTOPHER ng
Someone who cares alot about his friends, someone who is always happy infront of all his friends;
he'll never allow any of his friends to experience what he's been going through; for the fear of them being hurt.
with that, he puts on a facade , he always appear jovial and cheerful infront of his friends.
they'll never know that, another side lives within him. He'll always want to see his loved ones being happy, it makes his day.
Someone who loves talking; he could order a cup of fine earl grey or smoothie and chat with his friends till the end of time.He
loves fresh salad, he don't mind eating them for the rest of his life.
Edmund is sometimes said to be dominant; he wants result to the extent that he can be really scary. Edmund treasures what he has,
his family and his friends.
Sometimes, he wished he could show his emotions to people whom he knows care about him, he has never done that; he's always looked
upon as strong among his friends. He's always looked upon as the mature and serious one; he can get childish at times, also, he'll
also feel lethargic. He's someone who gets paranoid easily.
Edmund loves shopping; he could be in a shopping spree for mainly 2 reasons; a)shopping with good companions, b) bad mood
having said so much, he's not. abnormal; he's just like any ordinary boy.
